Friday, May 8, 2020

Meditate to overcome Covid Anxiety?

Everything I need to meditate is in this photo - my Bose sound cancelling headphones, a blanket and my favourite chair. 

I do everything that people and articles say that adults shouldn't do. I multi-task, I take on way too much work because I'm a mom - business owner - millennial - independent woman - general itchy backside person with something to prove and the blanket MCO suddenly enforcing me to stop moving, to literally stay home and stay quiet drove my anxiety high, like, really really extremely high.  

I am 100% sure that I am not the only Malaysian adult feeling this way, so maybe today's post can help you out if you're feeling restless in your heart but you don't know why or how or what to do about it.

Although I suddenly had 24 hours to fully utilise because I didn't have to attend so many meetings or travel so much, I suddenly started focusing on everything I could do even more intently. If I wasn't tossing a baby around, I was at my laptop from sun up to midnight typing away; there was never time for myself even though most hours was spent by myself most days. 

It was crazy and anxiety driving and I didn't know what was wrong. I hated the feeling of not knowing why I couldn't stop moving, why I felt so much guilt over staying at home and why I can be so grateful and yet be so sad at the same time. 

How can we not be sad? Every day that the country is put on pause, families go hungry. When I really think about it, I can be really sad. Anyway. 

As a person who doesn't even have the patience to diet in her whole life, I didn't know if I had the patience to start meditating. 

But shortly after exhausting game apps on my phone and finally deleting Facebook from my phone, I finally came across just one meditation app that looked fun. It's called Headspace and because of Covid they are offering meditation courses for free

What really made me download the app was their easy-to-understand video. Click here and watch it to understand what meditation is really like in 1 minute

I've completed the Basic 10 course session (10 minutes a session only!) and I'm onto Basics 2. They also have a wind down meditation session that is quite good. I only used it once and fell asleep before the session even ended; I still prefer to read 9gag before I fall asleep: 

How to Meditate

If you don't want to use the above app (but you should! It's free!), just set your timer for 11 minutes. Sit at a quiet place where you won't be disturbed, get comfortable. 

Breathe in through your nose and out of your mouth 5 times. 

Close your eyes gently and count your breathing. 

Take note of every aspect of your body from your bones to your organs. 

Thoughts and feelings will come and go as you sit still. Don't fight it or feel anything about it; acknowledge it and send it on its way. Go back to breathing. 

When the timer goes off, stretch your body and get on with the rest of your day. Eventually, keep adding more minutes to your meditation schedule. 

Dear Internet, I'm so proud to say that the girl who can't even sit still for one Netflix show can sit still for up to 15 minutes now - not moving, not thinking, not reacting to anything. 

Meditation Benefits (so far) 

I can sit still for longer now  

Which means I am in control 

I am in control of my actions and thoughts more, because they are more selective instead of reactive

I can reason things out better with my spouse because it's harder to annoy each other now that I can look at situations objectively 

I can spend time with my children without worrying about their future and if I can afford their future 

I can accept things I have control over 

I can let go of things I have no control over 

I can take the sadness, acknowledge it and let it go 

I hope to continue meditating even after Covid because it only takes 10-15 minutes of my day. It seems like such a waste to keep chasing after everything but missing everything at the same time. 


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